She grabbed me by the shoulders and shook me so hard it hurt.
“Yes. Of course you will eat. We’ll find a surgeon who knows what to do.”
“You don't know that!”
“Yes, I do! One day, this is all going to feel like a blip in time”

THIS IS A BLIP, IS A BLIP IN TIME
THIS CANNOT LAST FOREVER
THIS IS A MOMENT, A FRIEND OF MINE
LET IT GO, SWIFTLY SURRENDER

“Mom what the hell is a blip?”
“This is going to pass!”
“Says who?!”

BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, THE PRESENT’S PASSED
ONLY A STORY YOU’LL TELL
THE THING ABOUT NOW IS IT DOESN’T LAST
YET THE LESSONS WILL DO YOU WELL

I felt like the little girl who got her lollipop taken away when her head was turned, Would she ever get back that sweet sugary high that made her tongue tingle?

SIT UNDER THIS TREE WITH ME
SIT AND HOLD MY HAND
BREATHE IN WHAT THE AIR IS WHISTLING
GROUNDING WITH THE LAND

What have they done to you? How on earth did you get this deformed? And what the hell is that thing bulging out of you where your belly-button should be?

Only aliens don’t have bellybuttons.
Aliens and Alfred Hitchcock.

THESE ARE THE WAYS, ARE THE WAYS WE HEAL
WHEN LIFE STRIKES US FROM ABOVE
THE ONLY SENSATIONS THAT ARE REAL
ARE THOSE WHO WE LIVE FOR AND LOVE

I was watching a Taco Bell commercial on the Food Network, miserable and holding back tears.

HOLD STILL JUST A BIT MORE AND YOU WILL CATCH
THE RAYS OF SUN ON YOUR SKIN
THE SADNESS WILL PASS, THE PAIN FLOATS AWAY
THE LIGHT IS MEANT TO BREATHE IN

Mom tenderly held my shoulder and said, “Amy, you deserve to be happy.”


FLOAT UPON THESE WAVES WITH ME
DRIFT BACK TO THE SHORE
SOMETIMES WHAT WE THINK WE NEED
IS NOT WHAT WE ARE TRULY LONGING FOR.

Is it okay, God, to be happy? To have this life...and be happy?

THIS ALL WILL PASS
THOUGH IT MAY SEEM LIKE A BIG STORM CLOUD
ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS
IS THAT I KNOW I’M HERE RIGHT NOW…

One surgeon told my parents, “I don’t think she’s bought into this life thing yet.”
He was right.

THIS IS A BLIP, IS A BLIP I’LL BET
SOON TO BE MEMORIES
THIS IS THE TIME THAT I WON’T FORGET
IT WILL REMAIN WITH ME
Please God, bless me with a miracle. Knock me over with a mind-blowing epiphany, like the apple falling on Newton’s head. Or just give me the apple!


I AM THE FUTURE, I AM MYSELF
I AM WHAT I BELIEVE
I HAVE THE POWER TO START AGAIN
NEW STRANDS TO THREAD AND WEAVE

How am I supposed to “buy into life” when I can’t even buy ANYTHING at Stop and Shop??

THIS ALL WILL PASS
IF I STAND STRONG

AND ALL WILL BE IS MY SONG!